Facing Your Fears

Ok…so the original title of this post in my head from last weekend was “Big Scary Sewing Machine” (more about that in another post)…but then the Diva Challenge (#325) came out. Add tho this a trip where I ended up having to face a fear of heights whilst driving, and out came this topic.

First up…fear of heights. I have been working over the past several years to desensitize myself to a fear of heights that mostly manifests during freeway driving. You know…those huge stacked freeway interchanges we have in the United States? Well, I drive a fairly large SUV (Toyota FJ Cruiser) and since I am 5’4″, I cannot exactly see over the hood, and it sits up pretty high. So, I have some little anxiety/panic attacks about those interchanges, and will usually add a few minutes onto my routes to avoid them. Thank goodness for Google Maps, as I can see in the satellite views which ones I need to detour.

But, there are places where that just is not possible. Like traveling across bridges. Like the Golden Gate Bridge. One of the most beautiful places I know. And one of my happy places. I have not driven in the Bay Area in about 30 years. Mike does all the driving when we are up there, But today, I had to get myself to the airport and return the rental car so he could drive the Uhaul down. And you know what happened? Nothing. Not even a twinge of panic.

I was so emboldened by this that I took the Express Lanes all the way home from LAX and crossed over the new “big scary” at the State Route 91 – Interstate 15 connector. (The caveat here is that I was driving his car, a lot lower to the ground.) But I did it. No sweaty palms, nothing.

So, you ask, CharKat, what has this to do with the Diva Challenge this week? Jessica Davies, CZT is filling in for Laura again this week, and proposed the tangle Peanuckle. At TangleU 2016, this tangle was presented by Molly Hollibaugh herself, to a collective groan from the audience. It strikes unease in the hearts of many, even CZTs, as it is a particularly high focus tangle.

I can execute this tangle with a degree of technical proficiency, but I have yet to make friends with it enough to make it my own. It is not one I ever do on purpose, and I have yet to teach it. But, I thought I would give it another shot here. I took a 6″ Stonehenge piece with me that I had been playing with Tombow markers and water on, so I used that.

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I am not unhappy with the results, but I think it just fades into the background a bit. I may try it again more front and center, or just continue to hold it at arms length. Maybe I need to desensitize myself to that, too.


The August Schedule is posted! This month’s special – Summer Time Blues – An Opus Undertaking – will, in fact, take place on Saturday the 19th. We will play with shapes as reticula for tangles as strings, with a whole lot of blue pens. FUN! (Seating is limited to 12 for this class…do not miss out!)

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I am also going to be adding a FREE Bullet Journaling Support Group, but in August it may take place during Open Studio time on the 13th.

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And check out Open Studio – EVERY SUNDAY – in August. It is cool inside, and you can bring anything you want to work on. I have been working on a quilt.

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Oh, and not to be remiss in announcing…we have a Guest CZT at the shop in September. On Monday, September 11, Cris Letourneau will be teaching her class Renaissance Express at CharKat’s! I am very excited for this, and the techniques she will be teaching are amazing and fun. Cris has authored 2 books on Zentangle techniques that I refer to often – Made in the Shade and Pattern Play: A Zentangle Creativity Booster (with Sonya Yencer.) This is a limited seating class, so make sure you reserve your space early. (Did I mention that you even get that awesome mat in your class kit?)

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I have a few things to finish tonight, being out of town for a few days really puts you in a tight spot playing catch up. Sometimes it is a puzzle seeing where to fit things in!

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6 thoughts on “Facing Your Fears

  1. I took a deep dive through your new website. Nice. I wish I lived close to Petaluma. I’d be a regular fixture in your shop. Are you really there from 5:00 a.m. to 9:00 p.m. every day? For some reason, your Peanuckle composition feels Asian to me. Maybe it’s that the black stripes remind me of Japanese calligraphy. I also really like the blue opus tile and I’m impressed that you’re still plugging away on the quilt. I feel guilty every time I look at the box where my sewing machine resides. Kudos for choosing to drive over the bridge, but if I were you, I’d trade in the SUV for something you’re more comfortable driving. Life is too short to be taking detours.

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  2. Nice work on Pea-nuckle. The mind can play some interesting tricks. Sometimes have to remind ourselves that the same process that allows us to react to a movie that we know is not real is the same that makes it difficult to deal with the brain getting tricked about risks that do not exist. Sometimes we do it because we have to. Remember the TV series Monk?

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  3. Thanks so much for another thought provoking and inspiring post. As I’ve said before, I’m always delighted by the diversity of creations you share here. I love the contrast of the graphic line work and the watercolor of your Peanuckle piece. The blue opus is stunning. Kudos to you for facing your fears. I’ve normally not had a fear of driving over bridges, since living most of my life in San Francisco and the Peninsula, we’re all about bridges here. I moved to San Diego for 4 years, My first drive across the Coronado bridge practically traumatized me. I’ll never forget that, Subsequent trips always brought about various levels of anxiety. Weird.
    Man, I wish I could make down there for Cris’s class. It should be amazing;-)

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